Beauty in Brokenness
So we are 3 months into the year of 2019 and I’m pretty sure I’ve cried, screamed, punched, or have had some type of emotional breakdown for over half of the days. From the person I gave my ALL to deciding to walk away (& y’all, I mean I gave my EH-VA-REE-THANG), to God calling home one of my best friends (I love you Suh! Rest in heaven!), to going into a new semester of grad school under-prepared, life has been knockin’ a sistah out! And I have to be honest, I feel as if every part of me has been broken. There are no words to describe the heaviness of emotions that’s been weighing on me.
In this season of my life 2 Corinthians: 7-9 is a Bible scripture that comforts me and just resonates with my soul: 7 But we have this treasure in jars of clay to show that this all-surpassing power is from God and not from us. 8 We are hard pressed on every side,but not crushed; perplexed, but not in despair; 9 persecuted, but not abandoned; struck down, but not destroyed.
I am a work in progress, and I am not ashamed to share this. The place that I’m in today is not the same place that I was in yesterday, and tomorrow I will take another step forward. Despite feeling like I’m being caved in between brick walls, I know that my God has not abandoned me. I can’t wait to see my growth after this season comes to an end. Yes, I’ve been broken, but not destroyed! I know that God is filling my voids and restoring my hope (because man oh man, I was in a HOPELESS place y’all!).
At the beginning of it all, I remember truly believing that I didn’t have the strength to move forward, and the truth is… I didn’t. But God had (& has) all of the strength that I needed. God is where I draw my power from, and He is the only reason I’ve been able to make any progress in this season.
Even on my weakest days, I know that I’m progressing and healing. And everyday that goes by, my brokenness is being filled with grace, love, and mercy!
My hope is that you find comfort in this verse, and that you know that there is beauty in your brokenness!